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Friday, 12 April 2013

where does the time go....


Have I been slacking?
Why, yes…yes I have.
Am I proud of this?
It’s two fold.

Here’s the low down peeps….
I started back to work full day. This…THIS I am not so excited about. I’ve enjoyed my time with the monkeys every afternoon. It was…well, lekker getting off every day at noon. I’d pick Lil Mister up from school. We’d enjoy a walk home. He pointed EVERY SINGLE VEHICLE, AIRPLANE, etc out along the way. We chatted about…well the things two year olds chat about.
I’d get home, have some coffee, and snuggle with LJ while he fed. We’d all three then relax outside, paint, play clay or do whatever else the hours brought around.
Some days….I wanted to pull my hair out. But you can read more about that here.
Mostly though…we had a good system. A solid routine. Laundry was put away before Hubby Dearest came home, dinner was usually done by 6 pm and bags were packed, house picked up, and kitchen cleaned before bed.
I made lunch for Hubby and Vin (B.I.L.) each day and was maxing my workouts time the best the littles allowed!
In essence, I was rocking this whole working mom with two boys thing! I was the shizznit dudes!
Now….
Part of me is pouting. There is a part of me that is protesting. That part of me is causing the other part to buck like a wild horse being broke.
I’m serious peeps. I explained to Hubby Dearest and Vin that when I returned full day things would have to change. They would have to….duh duh duh…HELP ME!
This is not going over so smoothly.
So…what do I do? Well, the minimum. It’s kind of like cutting off your own nose to spite your face. It just doesn’t work!
I need to resurrect a routine. I walk in the door roughly at 5:30 pm. LJ wants to see me, Lil Mister needs attention and dinner must be started. Planning has to be done because I can no longer hit the shops on the way home! I won’t make it in time to let the nanny leave in time to catch her bus. So, shopping is strictly done on weekends…with BOTH kids in tow. (Pray for me please!)
I have to get myself motivated in the evenings. I need to plan that the men cook on the days I want to run. I have to restructure my running schedule that I run more on weekends…previously I took Sunday as my rest day.
This morning….it was busy. It was flustered. I didn’t even sit to drink coffee. I need to be making the most of my evenings when Lil Mister goes to sleep….it’s an hour less sleep, I’ll survive. This way, I can enjoy a little bit of time with him in the mornings!
I can…I CAN do this!

But Hubby must help…..

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Monday, 8 April 2013

MHO Monday Mingle-Vacations

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A weekly questioner with Funny Postpartum Lady and Story of a Girl!!


This weeks theme:  Vacation

1.  Do you take family vacations?
We’d like to but at this stage it isn’t happening L We have lots and lots of, umm….dreams and discussions about what our vacations will be.

2.  Did you take family vacations as a kid?  If so, what is the one you remember the most?
Not really. What I do remember was going with Dad in the semi for weeks every summer! We’d hit the road that first Sunday school was over and I’d be gone for a week, come home the weekend, and leave out again with him for another week. I’d come home for a couple of weeks and then do it all over again. I hated when our trips ended. When it was just him and me and the open road it felt as if everything was perfect. He was my best friend.

3.  What is your dream vacation, as a family, a couple or even alone?
As a family, Hubby and I want to take the boys on a road trip around South Africa. We want to wait until they’re in high school so they can remember the experience better. But we just want to load up a caravan, take a few weeks and stroll to every hot spot and some unknown wonders and beauties from one corner to the other.

4.  What is your preferred method of traveling? Ex. flying, driving, taking a train, a cruise?
I’d love to take a cruise and trains can be fun. I didn’t necessarily LOVE flying but I don’t mind it. I’d have to say though that driving is my favorite. It is so personal. It creates an experience you can’t exchange. Sometimes the memories of getting there were just as good as the vacation itself!

5.  Have you already made vacations planned for this summer, or are you planning a “staycation”?
Since summer is ending here in South Africa…no. We had a baby for our summer! ;-) hehe but we’re planning this coming summer. The boys will both be older (1 and 3) so we plan to head to the Great Grandparents in Durban….a little fun in the sun at the sea! ;-) Oh…and if time and finances will permit….a nice fishing trip…JUST THE ADULTS!! We plan to let the boys go to Ouma and Oupa for like 3 days or so and Hubby and his brother and girlfriend and I hit the road for camping and fishing and relaxing! Oooooo!!!

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Friday, 5 April 2013

Chocolate and Excuses Fitness Friday {week 14}


Oh my! My first 5k is in less than three weeks! I can't believe how fast the time has flown! I know that for many women in this running community, my 5k goal is still small; but on the grand scheme of things it is huge to me! I haven't stuck with all my goals as closely as I'd hoped but meeting this race is evidence of a changed me!
It is success just to get up and finish! It is victory that I proved to myself that my body could 'bounce' back from the birth of my second child. It is evidence that I CAN work, be a wife, be a mom, live a faith filled life and set examples for healthy living!
It is my happiness.
Running started out as a mission. It wasn't something I loved to do. It was something I wanted to love to do. I kept getting out there and doing it like I enjoyed it. And slowly....with each pat of my foot to the tar...with each drop of sweat falling from my body...a love grew. I nurtured it. I took care of my body so that we could enjoy this...body and mind together as one.
And sure enough....I love it! I need it...I'm addicted to it! Maybe even more than coffee...okay not more than coffee but still! 
What is so amazing is that Hubby Dearest has decided to get moving again too! He has joined a local rugby team! I am BEYOND SUPER EXCITED for this! I get all twittery thinking about going out there on Saturdays to cheer and scream for my Hubby! I can't wait to see him in action!
The idea is that we're creating a lifestyle that is mentally AND physically good and appealing to our boys! We want them to want to move! We want them to want to be healthy. Therefore we want healthy to be FUN!! 
And it is!!!!

Recap:
March 25- March 31
Did I mention last week about it raining?? Oh...yea. It seems to do that A LOT. Like today...it has rained THE WHOLE FRACKIN' day! {BTW I'm writing this on Wednesday...so I don't know the forecast for Friday!} I did some cross training. I actually got in 3!!! 
I've avoided all tempo runs thus far. I just...grr. I want to want to do them. But I can't get myself motivated! 
I did a nice long 8km run!! It was slow but it felt great....and then...
Then we went away for the weekend and I ate chocolate. And I chatted and visited with Ma. And I drank coffee with friends...
and I didn't RUN AT ALL!! I'm very disappointed in myself. I let life get in the way too much. This is suppose to be incorporated into life and instead I'm using life as an excuse. Which I don't know why because I want to run....I just don't want to miss whats going on in my home too! :-/

Future outlook:
April 8- April 14
2x cross training (1x full body 1x core)
2x easy runs totalling 11 km
Speed: 5x 800m @4:35-4:40
Tempo: 5k tempo @ 6:00
8km long run

Wish me luck and stay tuned next week!

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Thursday, 4 April 2013

ADVERTISE AND SAVE THE RHINOS

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{Disclaimer: Images in this post are graphic and subject matter is serious. Not for sensitive viewers.}
Want your sponsorship to be more than just getting your button on another blog? Interested in helping a good cause? Keep reading…
When I found out I was pregnant with Lil Mister, obviously hundreds {if not thousands} of ideas began flooding my mind of all the things I wanted to teach him and the type of Mom I wanted to be.
One very specific value I knew I wanted to instill into him {and all my children} is the importance of animals and their well being.
To me, animals are more than just creatures. They have souls and feelings; families and loves; likes and dislikes. Animal cruelty is the quickest way to have me loose all respect for you.
Living in South Africa, we are blessed with some of what I consider the most beautiful animals in the world!
Despite some beliefs…there are not lions running the streets of Johannesburg; unless they won the Curry Cup of course! ;-)
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But in our parks and nature reserves, conservation is working hard, very hard, to keep these animals alive and healthy!
One amazing species, that happens to be part of The Big 5, is quickly deteriorating because of poaching. It is a terrible, horrendous act that is leaving hundreds of these beloved animals to suffer and die.
I’m talking about the rhinoceros!  
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These beautiful animals are on the verge of extinction because of poaching. Poachers cut off the horns of the animal for sale on many ‘black markets’ such as the underground Asian market. In some extreme instances, the animal is left alive to suffer.
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Some of our parks are no longer even willing to house rhinos because of the threat of poaching, leaving less space for these creatures to thrive.
Infant with her mother www.piaberrend.org
As stated by Save The Rhino, there are less than 29,000 African rhinos left {this includes White Rhinos at approx 20,400 and Black Rhinos at 5,050; of which about 20,000 reside in South Africa alone}. This is a dramatic decline from a population in the 1970’s of over 70,000!!
In 2011, there were 448 rhinos killed in South Africa. A record of 668 were killed in 2012 as reported by Environment News Service. Compare that to the less than 20 killed a mere 7 years ago in 2005.
The Guardian has effectively reported that the horns are now selling at about $65,000 per kilogram making them more valuable than gold.
Why are these precious beasts being tortured and killed you ask?
Some examples can be looked at here.
The list is extravagant…almost as extravagant as the lives being lived by those buying the horns. A cure for poisons, a cure for typhoid and flu, preserves youth, cures you of demons, calm the liver, get rid of fear or anxiety…the list is on going! The horns are ground into a powder in which is then mixed with liquid or placed over food.
So what is going to happen?
One idea is de-horning, which you can read more in depth about here. Basically, it is the idea that by removing a rhino’s horn, we decrease the risk of it being poached. This has yet to be proven effective or ineffective to any extent and it is reported that it could cost between US$5.5-8.8 million to dehorn all the rhinos in the Kruger National Park alone. Repercussions to this method, other than financial, are also yet to be extensively known.
Another hot topic is the shoot to kill method. As of this time, Rangers and conservationists are only to shoot at poachers if their own lives are put into imminent danger {i.e. the poacher shoots at them}. Many have varied opinions on this approach, I’ll keep mine mute at this point in time.
Why have I brought all of this up?
Well, besides the fact that it is a topic VERY close to my heart. I am planning to do my little part to help out. And I’m asking that you join me.
Wouldn’t it be great if you could advertise your blog AND help a good cause at the same time??
That is what I’m offering you today. You’ll notice if you check my sponsors page that my prices have gone up quite a bit at this stage. It’s all for the cause my peeps.
For the next 30 days, I am donating ALL the money raised through sponsors on my page. That’s right. You read it here first! Every cent that I earn from 04 April 2013 until 04 May 2013 will be donated to the SaveThe Rhino campaign. Even if {praise God} all the ad slots fill up and your ad only shows sometime in May…if you register during April, I donate the money!
I’ll email you a copy of the donation receipts for verification and tax purposes!! {I’m cool like that!}
Seriously, dudes, this is a really good thing here. You get your blog out there for exposure, we get to know each other {which is totally awesome}, and we help this really great cause!!
These animals are precious. They are moms and babies. They are females and their mates. They are an entire species being bled to death for a piece of their body that is now more valuable than cocaine on the black market!!
If you want to know more, email me at shanamom2{at}gmail{dot}com.
If you can’t help by sponsoring, than please PLEASE share this! Get the word out there. Encourage others. Read up on these beautiful creatures. Tell a friend. TWEET!!!
And a BIG thank you! Thank you for reading this. Thank you for supporting this cause. Thank you for allowing me to tug at your heart strings!
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TT: Family is for....

This week Jenn proposed a little fun topic for us. We were to create an acrostic poem!
Although thought to be ridiculous, I vowed to take on the challenge and make it my own....to conquer and overcome the stigma...
oh...it's really not the dramatic! BUT I had great fun coming up with this little baby to fit into focus on another link up too!
Becca over at Faith, Love, & Babies has started up a great link up called Power of Prayer. Each Thursday we link up a faith focused post. 

Right now, my marriage and family has been the center and focus of my prayers! 
Of course I always pray for my family and my marriage but they have taken a very deep need within me. A family that prays together; stays together!
We've gone through a difficult year in 2012 and didn't kick start 2013 in the best of manners. But I have made it my prime focus this year to turn our family around and get us on track financially, mentally, physically, and spiritually! I figure each of those begins with me! I have to make changes to myself first and set the example for my family to follow! 
So, here I sit, praying for my family each and every day!

My Poem {FAMILY}
Family, you say, is living in failth filled daily prayer
Always putting God first to create our protective layer
Marriage built with Jesus as our cornerstone
Is surely securing we're never left alone
Lovingly we navigate each and every day
You know together we'll always find our way

I love each and everyone of you!


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Wednesday, 3 April 2013

The monster....




She can feel the pressure building up inside of herself. It’s like there is a lever pushing higher and higher into her chest. It breaks through burrowing in her throat.
The fear penetrates from her eyes. Searching…searching for a place to hide. There is no where but within.
She knows she’s slipped. She knows she is at the edge. But she can’t turn back. She can’t break free…..She can’t control it any longer.
The monster is loose. She tears through the emotions of those around her like a lioness ripping into its kill. She feels nothing but the relief of freedom. She screams and shouts. She roars her nasty voice throughout the hearts of the house. Nothing is good enough. No one behaves well enough. Nothing can be missed by her searing eye. The anger is too much to bear. The grief to high a price.
The relief is soon succumbed by guilt. The tears flow from her eyes as she looks into the innocence of the children. They deserve better. The deserve strength. The weakness must be hidden. She becomes angry with herself. With this….this….THIS.
This sickness..this disease.
Why did it choose her?
Why did it attack her family?
She stops everything and sits on the floor. It doesn’t take away the mistakes made, but the children are forgiving. They play cars. They have tickle fights. They laugh.
She becomes grounded…centered again.

She breathes for the first time in hours. The air fills her lungs as if they’ve been stationary for too long an age.

One tear…one last tear may fall and then she’ll move on.
She has to be strong…not weak.
She has to be steady….not trembling.
She has to be Mom.
She forgot to take her pill….


This post was written as part of a series following my conquering of a PPD diagnosis. Click the link to read more.

If any of this sounds even slightly familiar, please clickity click a few of the links below. Some are blogs, some are just information.
And please don’t feel alone!
Postpartum Progress
Surprising Symptoms
Ivy's PPD Blog
First Time Mom and Dad
PPD to Joy

If you just want to talk to someone...I'm up for that too! Send me a little email or drop by my twitter! I'd love to chat with you about everything and anything. We'll have a cuppa (or a bottle of wine ;-) through our virtual cafe!


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Tuesday, 2 April 2013

A New Adventure

Hey peeps! I’m being featured on Traveling Tuesdays over at Dawn’s Disaster…why don’t you head over there and check it out!!

In the mean time….let’s catch up!We spent an awesome weekend with Hubby Dearest’s parents and middle brother. In case you weren’t sure, the youngest brother is currently staying with us…this deserves it’s own post…seriously dudes!
I can’t wait to get all of the pictures uploaded and tell you all about Lil Misters Easter…but you will just have to take my word for it…for now!!
In other news…
Today was supposed to be my first day back FULL DAY! I was given a two month gap in which I only returned to work half-day because I came back two months before my maternity leave would have ended. This was heavenly (not the returning to work and leaving my precious monkeys but the working half-day!). I was home to play every afternoon, had plenty of time for things like dishes and dinner and I wasn’t exhausted and frazzled each night falling into bed as if my life depended on it (okay I do depend on sleep but you know what I mean!).
Unfortunately (or fortunately…I haven’t decided yet), the girl who looks after LJ at home phoned yesterday evening at 5pm to say she wouldn’t be coming to work today. Now, I pay this girl to look after my son and clean my house. The house isn’t that much and she is ALWAYS done when I get home at 1pm. So, when I decided to give her a 33% increase to stay full day instead of half, Hubby Dearest thought me insane!
I battled so much with Lil Mister being sick in his first year and he ended up hospitalized at 8 months old because of constant respiratory infections; I refused to put a second child through all of it. If I could do anything to keep LJ from experiencing this, I was going to. In my mind, keeping LJ home for the first year was ideal. Thus…hire a maid/nanny!! ;-)
Problem ensues…nanny no come work….mommy screwed!
I was panicking! Where would I send LJ?
I phoned my boss who is wonderful, but no…LJ cannot come to work. His suggestion was I stay home!
Not that I have a ton of work today, but really we just came off of a 4 day weekend. How crap do I look not coming to work today!?!?
Then Mr. P comes to the rescue. He is off this morning and has graciously decided to take LJ for a few hours (even though this meant me interrupting the beauty sleep process at 6:30 this morning!)!! I’m so blessed to have friends like this.
So we arranged that I would work half-day for one.last.day.
How do I feel??
Anxious to begin with. I’m a nervous wreck. I’ve had about 8 cups of coffee just considering the idea that from tomorrow I’m back here 10 hours a day!! With transport time, I’m gone 11 hours.each.day! How can my babies survive?
I know it seems ridiculous because I did it before LJ was born and Lil Mister was fine…however! Lil Mister was my only jewel then. In the evenings I came home and he was my focus. We were also still living with Hubby Dearest’s parents then, so cooking was done by the time I walked in the door!
Lil Mister was the center of attention.
Now…well now that spotlight is already being shared…and now I’m cutting the time in which the light has to shine! This mommy light is growing dim in my childrens eyes.
I’m tearing up right now…please pass me the virtual tissue.
But really, it breaks my heart thinking that my children won’t have as much time with me. How will I cope? How am I suppose to get home and have 3 hours to cook dinner, bath kids, eat, and do bedtime? When do I get to see them?
Yes, many moms go through what I’m going through. They do it. They survive. Their kids adapt and love them still. It doesn’t lower my feelings of lost, confusion, regret.
I have to work, both because we need the money and because it helps me be a better me. But I would love to have had the option to stay half day. Financially, we just can’t afford the pay cut for me to do that.
So….a new adventure begins.

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Monday, 1 April 2013

When all it does is rain....

When all it does is rain every afternoon....

You make a tent!!

Keeping Lil Mister busy when going outside is not an option can become, well, difficult. I do not like using the TV 24/7 and would much rather have music in the background than watch CARS for the bazillionth time (and yes if you are mom of a toddler that is an ACTUAL number!).


The other day the weather had looked like this....

for just a little bit too long!

So...we drug out all the duvets and sheets....


rearranged the lounge

And gladly ruined our dinner while maxing out on chips and yogurt and reading books under our tent!
His smile is worth it all!!
What do you do on a rainy day?


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