You know
those weeks where it feels like things just don’t stop. I know that you know
what I’m talking about!
It seems
as if every time you’re just beginning to get ahead, 20 more things come
toppling down on you. If you can just dig yourself out of the hole far enough
to get some fresh air, well... then you might actually survive.
It was one
of those weeks.
LJ was
sick with flu. After we got back from Family Camp, he just kept getting worse.
Really he’d done pretty well all winter long and we kept him dressed warm, but
the cold evenings won over. Monday morning he woke up with the snotties
basically in his mouth.
Of course
he thought the snot bubbles were absolutely hilarious. Mommy found them more
amusing than the sleepless nights.
The poor
little guy wanted to sleep...but kept waking up from the blocked nose and the
coughing. His wonderful nanny, Maggy, (She deserves an entire post!) was finally able to get him into the
doctor Friday afternoon. He wasn’t overly sick but we didn’t want to wait until
the cough developed into something worse.
If it
wasn’t for the absolute peace of him resting solid, his fighting to NOT take
his medicine might have won....alas, Dr. Mom appeared all weekend long. (Mr.
Sandman also visited and it was lovely!)
Lil Mister
is causing havoc as well, but of a more....demanding nature toddler nature. The winter is
getting to him too....he is fed up with being indoors! On weekends, we
definitely squeeze some outdoor time during the day, but during the week it is
too much. He gets a couple of hours at school in the morning/afternoon but that
is it. Once I pick him up, we go home and are confined to the house because the
wind is strong and the cold is set in and the dark is upon us.
Hubby
Dearest and I do our best to entertain him, but I just feel like we’re not
doing enough. I get home at 5:30 pm; Hubby just before 6 most nights. We need
to cook dinner, get baths done, eat, clean up afterwards and prepare for the
next day. Bedtime is 8 pm and among everything both kids want to play and get
attention and we want to give them these things.
We try our
best to leave the house and other things until the kids are asleep, but I’d be
lying if I told you I’m up past 8:30 most evenings. Think I’m crazy? Well,
neither kid is sleeping through the night yet although we are working on it. I
can easily be up 5 times between the two of them (if no one is sick!) then I
get up at 4:30 every morning! I’m beat in the evenings.
I guess I
just wish we had more time to do more things with the boys....especially Lil
Mister who needs some extra stimulation lately.
If home
life wasn’t hectic enough; did I mention we haven’t had a quiet weekend
in...umm, months? We have had activities every weekend since the last weekend
in June! Well, if that isn’t enough,
work has basically doubled.
It’s too
much to go into detail about, but I’ve added another management system on top
of my debtor and creditor work. I still love my job and am finding it even more
rewarding, but I just feel as if I can’t breathe.
There is a
never ending TO-DO running through my head and some days I feel completely
depressed because I’m not accomplishing everything I set out to do. It isn’t
that I’m taking on too much....
Really
there isn’t much in our schedule I can say no to. Kids are demanding and work
is too. All of which manages to fit into fixed hours of the day...most of the
time...but those hours just aren’t enough for what needs done!
Do you
ever feel this way? Like a little mouse forever endlessly running in that ring.
I’m looking more and more forward to our vacation in November!
For
now...I try to remind myself to take it one day, one hour at a time. I try to
find the little things that I love and dwell on them. I attempt to organize
myself so that I don’t have to constantly have my mind on another task than
what is at hand. But most of all...
I try to
remember that the house work can wait, the laundry can hang a little longer,
and we don’t have to eat gourmet meals....so that I can play blocks a little
more, paint a little longer, sing another song, read two more books, or just stay
awake long enough that Hubby and I can have our daily devotional time.
XOXxx
Shana Danae..
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